Last Thursday, I celebrated my birthday. That sentence to me is a big deal to me. For me to actually celebrate my birthday is a big deal! Why? Because after my 20th birthday, I never ever wanted to celebrate my. Idthday again since that's when my life took a bad turn and my depression set in! For the last 9years, I refused to celebrate it and usually hibernate on that day! Why? The constant comparison of myself with other people of the same age and that I wasn't doing as well as others. The fact that I didn't deserve to be celebrated as I've hurt a few people including the people who birthed me.
But last Thursday was different. It is my last birthday in my 20s and although my early 20s where turbulent, overall it was my most defining decade where I became a parent, discovered myself, completed my degree and embarked on further studies as well as stepping and progressing on my career ladder. It is the decade where I build up my life from scratch. From living in other people's floor to now renting our own private flat. Finally, my kids... I have 2 little humans I created (and the husband) who wanted to celebrate me! But I wanted to celebrate it on my own terms!
I always wanted to go for afternoon tea, we booked a beautiful afternoon tea at The Milestone Hotel in Kensington. I wanted one that was perfect for the kids and when reading about best afternoon tea for children's, The Milestone topped he list. So we headed down to Kensington all excited to eat all the yummy food. The staff were amazing! We were welcomed warmly into a very beautiful drawing room. The hot chocolate we ordered was the best. It was so milky and with the right amount of chocolate. We didn't wait long for our food to come. The kids had a 2 tier little prince and little princess afternoon teas. Mine was a beautiful sight too and we couldn't wait to tuck in. The sandwiches were yummy with a variety of them. our favourite was the hotel's signature chicken sandwich. The pastries, oh, what can I say? So yummy! There was so much choice and so many chocolates delights hat we couldn't finish all of it. Thankfully, they can pack it to take it home. We were just communicating with 'mmm' 'yum'. The Milestone Hotel also offers the kids to decorate their own cupcake but as it was Easter, the kids got to decorate their own massive Faberge eggs! I know! The staff encouraged the children to use their imagination by not worrying about making a mess which the children loved so they couldn't concentrate on decorating their eggs rather then checking what mess they need to clean! Once we arrived back at the table, we finished our afternoon tea with some delicious scones! My first afternoon tea was a success and now can't wait to go back to The Milestone. A great experience for kids and adults alike. I can't fault it. And the Diana Memorial Park is just round the corner including Kensington Palace so why not make it a day in London?
Next, thanks to my work gang who booked very cheap tickets via Picniq, we headed off to The London Tombs in London Bridge. As a family, we love scary things. The kids favourite special day isn't Christmas but Halloween so that says how excited we were to hang out with zombies, skeletons, etc... To be honest, we didn't know what to expect so that built up our excitement too! Seeing all the characters too pumped us up! We had to wait a bit before entering but that's fine! We were offered free sweets while we were waiting which was a plus not knowing that we will actually need the overload of sugar very soon! Before all the scary stuff happened, we were introduced to the history of London Bridge including a little museum. And then, all the excitement happened. It was a very good 1h45 screaming and running. The first 30mins was not as scary and included history with gory artefacts. The second half is the scary but so if you feel uncomfortable in the first half, before you go to the 2nd half, you have the opportunity to leave the tour. My kids were the last ones standing and wanted to go al the way. Weird children I have. So we entered the second half and it was the best. I have to say, the way the staff communicated with us, signs and clips did make us a bit anxious which definetely increased our heart rate before we even stepped into the rooms.We had to go through The Tombs in single file and had to hold on to each other. I don't want to ruin it but they will be things jumping at you and chasing you but they won't touch you! Mahi waved at a zombie but otherwise didn't scream. Lucky on the other hand was screaming! I was just trying to not look back just in case something was following me. However, when we came out, we all wanted to go back and experience it again. ( This experience has slight changed due to Covid since this post was written). Mahi who looked fearless through the whole experience, point blank refused to go back! However, he wants to go back now and Mahi and Lucky have planned to go back in 7years time! Like I said, weird children I got! So yes, it is scary and might not be suitable for children who won't cope with severed heads/body parts, zombies, etc... Even grown up adults had to leave after the mild first half. Adults were running for their lives in the second half so only recommend if you and your children love all things bloody and morbid, like me and my children! It was a great experience and learned a few things about London Bridge too so would definetely recommend it if you ar brave!
My birthday ended with a great experience at JRC GLobal Buffet with food from all over the world and live cooking. The birthday girl went for free. Children were half price at £9.50 each and adult was £19. Lucky tried all the food that we wouldn't usually eat such as sushi and oyster. A good experience to expand your taste buds! Thankfully nobody brought a cake out!
Overall my birthday day was amazing and just how I liked it! So here's to my 29th and my last year year in my tremendous twenties!
Thursday, 20 April 2017
Tuesday, 18 April 2017
Hampton Court Palace and The Twits
Since Laksha loves history and is learning about the Tudors, I thought this will be the perfect place to talk her and add to her knowledge. And what more, there was an Easter egg hunt too and lots of sets and crafts going on perfect for Mahi!
We picked a beautiful day to go and had first a little picnic on the palace grounds. We then headed off to discover the palace! The place itself is so beautiful!! The kids loved going into the private places of where Henry the 8th lived! We loved exploring the different places in the palace! We also took part in interactive workshops and watching an hour long drama about Henry VIII and Anne Boleyn's brief story before their child was born. It was a great show which took us through different rooms in the palace which reinforced the story. Once we finished, exploring the palace we went to the gardens and that was another beautiful sight. We also visited the Rose Garden but no roses flowered. Once we finished exploring, we went to the Magical Gardens. It was one of the best playgrounds we've been too. Mahi was addicted to the slides and rolling down the hills. Lucky was just running around everywhere playing in the water play area and the tiny towers feeling like a princess.
As we were in the area, we also managed to fit in 'The Twits' show at the Rose Theatre in Kingston. As the kids loved Roald Dahl and O always wanted to see a production of The Twits, I thought it'll be perfect I was surprised to see that people with no children were there to watch it. The show was very interactive and disgustingly fantastic! The characters, songs and just the whole show was brilliant! We loved getting water sprayed during the show! By seriously, go watch it! We absolutely loved it!
Friday, 7 April 2017
The Chocolate Museum
The Easter holidays are here! I have so much planned that I don't know if I'll need a bed rest for a couple of days soon!
As always, I plan in advance what to do when kids holidays are here so I cAn take annual leave appropriately. While I researched to see if anything interesting was happening, Timeout had this Chocolate Museum workshops on and best of all it was in London!!! Woohoo! I didn't even know here was a chocolate museum? Did you? The price was quite reasonable too! £5/child. So I booked it, all excited and forgetting that Lucky had given up chocolates for Lent 🙈🙈🙈
The day came and of course I never tell the kids where we are going until we get there! Once they found out where we are going Mahi was ecstatic! Lucky was unstandingly quite angry at the choice of day out since she won't be eating the chocolates we make until Easter Sunday! So I allowed her that she can lick the chocolate while she makes it which made her happy!
The museum is a 5mins walk from Brixton station and looks like a shop front that we nearly missed it! The museum is small with workshops happening on the ground floor and a small exhibition at the basement! However, they made it quite homely. We were welcomed by a lovely staff member and introduced the kids about the workshops, what mounds they wanted and what type of cholcolate they wanted! Chocolate available were white, milk and dark. There were 4 mounds available: a medium sized duck which will become a solid chocolate, 4 lollipops, 1 egg and another which will produce 4 small eggs. Lucky picked white chocolate with the enormous egg and Mahi was mild lollipops. The kids got to first colour the stencil which they were also excited about. Theme they got to temper the chocolate and stir the chocolate until it came down to the right temperature. Once the right temperature was achieved, it was all about filling the mounds and licking off childcare of course! They really didn't need any lunch! Once they were set, we had to massage our moulds and tah-dah we had some yummy chocolate and it was yummy (because I was also involved in the chocolate licking process)!
I thought they was a lot of waiting around before and during the workshop. It would have been a good idea to explain the history of chocolate and for the kids to visit the exhibition as children were getting quite bored. The exechibition itself had some great information! They only had 2 staff for about 20children. The one that we were welcomed by was very friendly but the other staff member was rushing everybody and was not very friendly. She filled Mahi's mould instead of him filling it which kind of killed the fun for him! Although when booking it says 1hr, the workshop took 2hrs. You can leave the kids at the workshops and wander around Brixton if you wanted to. But if you wanted to stick around like I did, seating were only available in the basement!
Overall, the kids had a blast and the chocolate is truly delicious! They were so proud of their chocolate making skills and for £10 for both children, we had our money's worth. They also do adults workshops. For more info, here is the link: http://www.thechocolatemuseum.co.uk/
As always, I plan in advance what to do when kids holidays are here so I cAn take annual leave appropriately. While I researched to see if anything interesting was happening, Timeout had this Chocolate Museum workshops on and best of all it was in London!!! Woohoo! I didn't even know here was a chocolate museum? Did you? The price was quite reasonable too! £5/child. So I booked it, all excited and forgetting that Lucky had given up chocolates for Lent 🙈🙈🙈
The day came and of course I never tell the kids where we are going until we get there! Once they found out where we are going Mahi was ecstatic! Lucky was unstandingly quite angry at the choice of day out since she won't be eating the chocolates we make until Easter Sunday! So I allowed her that she can lick the chocolate while she makes it which made her happy!
The museum is a 5mins walk from Brixton station and looks like a shop front that we nearly missed it! The museum is small with workshops happening on the ground floor and a small exhibition at the basement! However, they made it quite homely. We were welcomed by a lovely staff member and introduced the kids about the workshops, what mounds they wanted and what type of cholcolate they wanted! Chocolate available were white, milk and dark. There were 4 mounds available: a medium sized duck which will become a solid chocolate, 4 lollipops, 1 egg and another which will produce 4 small eggs. Lucky picked white chocolate with the enormous egg and Mahi was mild lollipops. The kids got to first colour the stencil which they were also excited about. Theme they got to temper the chocolate and stir the chocolate until it came down to the right temperature. Once the right temperature was achieved, it was all about filling the mounds and licking off childcare of course! They really didn't need any lunch! Once they were set, we had to massage our moulds and tah-dah we had some yummy chocolate and it was yummy (because I was also involved in the chocolate licking process)!
I thought they was a lot of waiting around before and during the workshop. It would have been a good idea to explain the history of chocolate and for the kids to visit the exhibition as children were getting quite bored. The exechibition itself had some great information! They only had 2 staff for about 20children. The one that we were welcomed by was very friendly but the other staff member was rushing everybody and was not very friendly. She filled Mahi's mould instead of him filling it which kind of killed the fun for him! Although when booking it says 1hr, the workshop took 2hrs. You can leave the kids at the workshops and wander around Brixton if you wanted to. But if you wanted to stick around like I did, seating were only available in the basement!
Overall, the kids had a blast and the chocolate is truly delicious! They were so proud of their chocolate making skills and for £10 for both children, we had our money's worth. They also do adults workshops. For more info, here is the link: http://www.thechocolatemuseum.co.uk/
Monday, 3 April 2017
Boss Baby Review
MY BOSS BABY REVIEW
THE BOSS BABY
The boss baby is a baby with no sense of laughter when he was born. He goes to the Templetons house and he gets the true meaning of family, laughter, friendship and lo lo love .He went to the Templetons house to do an investigation on why baby are getting less attention and care.The boss baby has a big white face with dark green eyes, small chubby nose, pink small lips, small ears, little yellow hair. Do you know two things that are a little creepy? He wears a suit like a business man and has a brief case. How creepy?
TIM
There is a boy called Tim Templeton. He is a proper boy that helps the boss baby on his mission. Tim has a very big imagination but because of him boss baby can have the same imagination as Tim. Tim is the boss baby’s worst enemy. Tim shows the baby the real meaning of love and how to show it. Tim then loves the boss baby and asked him if he can come and live with them and thats what the boss baby did. Tim has a white face,blue eyes,brown wavy hair,rossy cheeks, and a yellow stripy t-shirt. Such a caring boy!!
My likes
The movie was the best movie I have seen yet. I liked the funny parts and the characters. I disliked nothing. Every thing was perfect. I rate it 10/10. It is a drum role….10!!!!! Thank you for listening or lets say reading my review.
Please give a thumbs up or down and please subscribe. this is Sophie's beautiful daughter,
LAKSHA.
Tuesday, 28 March 2017
Maternal Mental Health
Last Thursday, I was invited to a launch event for a charity I work with -Best Beginnings. Best Beginnings is a charity that helps parents to be and new parents tools such as the famous Baby Buddy app to help them through their parenting journey. I joined Best Beginnings 2 years ago after hearing it through twitter that they were looking for volunteers who had experienced mental health issues during or after pregnancy. I got in touch telling my experience especially how I wanted to raise awareness in the Asian communities. The next thing I knew, I was in the parent panel board reviewing videos and helping out at events. Last year, Best Beginnings was one of the 8 charities hand picked by Heads Together, a movement to approach mental Heath, headed by the young royals. I now had the opportunity to meet them twice to talk about my experience.
What is my experience? Well, before I found out I was pregnant, I was on a pretty bad state. So bad that I felt suicidal. I wouldn't talk to anyone and I was just surrounded by darkness. The only thing that got me through this was work! However, the day I found out I was pregnant, this darkness lifted off and I saw new hope in my life. I gave birth to my beautiful angel, my lifesaver.
But nobody told me how hard motherhood was going to be. They only told you about the positive things. Laksha was the exemplary baby. she was truly a gift from God! But I still struggled. The loneliness wa killing me. Everybody around me was telling me how to raise my baby but nobody was helping me. I needed to talk to someone to know I was doing the right thing but as a young mum, people would tell that you shouldn't even have a baby at that age. What got me the most was evenings when Laksha's colickness will flare up! I just couldn't shut her up! My partner wasn't helpful either but I couldn’t blame him with his 0 hour contract work . I remember one evening where I lost it. Laksha was crying for a long time and I couldn't stop her. So I just screamed and screamed telling her to shut up until she did. I felt horrible! I felt like the worse mother. The next few days I avoided carrying her or holding her in fear that I will lose it again. But the first time I ventured out with her (in my culture you can't leave the house for a month after giving birth) was the best thing ever! Just the air and seeing people going with their daily lives was enough for me! It did me so good. Then I started uni and started to be my normal self talking to actual adults!
It was 1 month of pure terror of what I could potentially do to Laksha. It followed on until she was 3months but not as severe. It got so lonely and I was scared to open up to my health visitors. But I got through it. But I had to do it myself because nobody around me knew what was happening. And that's why I started opening up about my experience.
What is my experience? Well, before I found out I was pregnant, I was on a pretty bad state. So bad that I felt suicidal. I wouldn't talk to anyone and I was just surrounded by darkness. The only thing that got me through this was work! However, the day I found out I was pregnant, this darkness lifted off and I saw new hope in my life. I gave birth to my beautiful angel, my lifesaver.
But nobody told me how hard motherhood was going to be. They only told you about the positive things. Laksha was the exemplary baby. she was truly a gift from God! But I still struggled. The loneliness wa killing me. Everybody around me was telling me how to raise my baby but nobody was helping me. I needed to talk to someone to know I was doing the right thing but as a young mum, people would tell that you shouldn't even have a baby at that age. What got me the most was evenings when Laksha's colickness will flare up! I just couldn't shut her up! My partner wasn't helpful either but I couldn’t blame him with his 0 hour contract work . I remember one evening where I lost it. Laksha was crying for a long time and I couldn't stop her. So I just screamed and screamed telling her to shut up until she did. I felt horrible! I felt like the worse mother. The next few days I avoided carrying her or holding her in fear that I will lose it again. But the first time I ventured out with her (in my culture you can't leave the house for a month after giving birth) was the best thing ever! Just the air and seeing people going with their daily lives was enough for me! It did me so good. Then I started uni and started to be my normal self talking to actual adults!
It was 1 month of pure terror of what I could potentially do to Laksha. It followed on until she was 3months but not as severe. It got so lonely and I was scared to open up to my health visitors. But I got through it. But I had to do it myself because nobody around me knew what was happening. And that's why I started opening up about my experience.
Going out even to the park did me so good. Finding me time is hard especially when you have multiple kids and no support around you. They tell you to sleep when baby sleeps but that was impossible for me. My husband will cook and clean whenever he could but with his uncertain job schedule, it was hard to maintain a routine and som weeks all of it fell on to me. We were desperate for money with me being a student and all of the living costs so my husband’s work schedule wasn’t negligible! It was tough extremely tough but we got through it. When my student timetable allowed, I will go to playgroups totals to other mums and just share motherhood experience which helped a lot!
With my second, my son, I felt a bit helpless again because it was the same routine day in and day out. So I used the weekend to break up the routine and go out. Spending time with my daughter while my son slept was also a great stress relief! Talking to friends, even if they didn’t have babies, was great for my well-being too!
Labour is the easiest part of becoming a mother. Motherhood is hard. Unfortunately, they’ll be lots of people giving you advice but very few who actually help. So look after you! Do what’s best for you!
If you are interested in finding out more about Best Beginnings and their amazing resources, check out https://www.bestbeginnings.org.uk/
If you are interested in finding out more about Best Beginnings and their amazing resources, check out https://www.bestbeginnings.org.uk/
Thursday, 23 March 2017
British Science Week 2017
British Science Week has come and gone and since we couldn't find any events around us, we brought he science week to our house! As the theme was change, we wanted to do something different to what we usually do or have tried. So I've downloaded a resource pack for both Lucky and Mahi.
With Lucky, we built a whole weather station. For the rain gauge, we just cut out the top of the milk bottle and marked to side of the bottle with measurements. And voila! The next was an anometer to measure the sleek of wind. Great as it was so windy and we could put it to use later on. We used some skewers to poke it through the middle of a cereal box and secured the bottom of the skewer with play dough. We then stuck 2 cupboard pieces across each other and popped through the skewers. We stuck 4 plastic cups on all 4 sides. It's now done! To calculate the speed, mark 1 cup and for 15seconds, count how many whole turns that marked cup is making. Then multiply it by 4 and you get the speed which is measured in resolution! Lastly, we also did a little compass to know the wind direction. Lucky has been measuring rain and wind everyday and loves it!
For Mahi, as he loves painting, we wanted to find out colour changes and what colours you'll get when mixing with them. So we used straws to blend colours in. It turned into a chasing game but it was a beautiful explosion of colours at the end.
A beautiful way to spend a weekend and the kids didn't know we were learning too.
With Lucky, we built a whole weather station. For the rain gauge, we just cut out the top of the milk bottle and marked to side of the bottle with measurements. And voila! The next was an anometer to measure the sleek of wind. Great as it was so windy and we could put it to use later on. We used some skewers to poke it through the middle of a cereal box and secured the bottom of the skewer with play dough. We then stuck 2 cupboard pieces across each other and popped through the skewers. We stuck 4 plastic cups on all 4 sides. It's now done! To calculate the speed, mark 1 cup and for 15seconds, count how many whole turns that marked cup is making. Then multiply it by 4 and you get the speed which is measured in resolution! Lastly, we also did a little compass to know the wind direction. Lucky has been measuring rain and wind everyday and loves it!
For Mahi, as he loves painting, we wanted to find out colour changes and what colours you'll get when mixing with them. So we used straws to blend colours in. It turned into a chasing game but it was a beautiful explosion of colours at the end.
A beautiful way to spend a weekend and the kids didn't know we were learning too.
Monday, 20 March 2017
Happiness
Happiness... such a beautiful word and a more amazing feeling but a word/feeling that is currently lost in translation. In all the atrocities we see around the world, it’s hard to be happy. When we depend on other people to make us happy, it's hard to be happy. But happiness is needed despite all that to be able to survive and tolerate this world. So what makes you happy?
What makes me happy is of course my babies! They are days when you are about to resign as a mother but most days is seeing the world through their eyes. Ok maybe not through a 7year old eye because currently it's full of how the world is unfair and how people need to be more helpful to each other. So seeing the world through a toddler eyes is more apt. Although maybe not my toddlers eyes since it's full of vampires, skeleton and all things yucky and scary. OK, well I give up! You know what I mean! Seeing the world through children’s eye is beautiful. How seeing your child laugh while an ant climbs her/his arm, how catching dandelions makes them squeal in delight, surprise on their faces when you take them somewhere special, etc....I love seeing my children happy! !
But I don't depend on them for me to be happy because I'm responsible for my own happiness. That's the point people are missing! They pick a job because it's well paid/parents' wishes thinking that money or fulfilling parents' dreams is going to give them happiness. Do you know how many people I worked with have quite their high flying banking jobs and came to work in the NHS? They sold their soul to money and in return lost passion for lives. That's why when people say to change sectors , so I can get more money and stop living in the edge, I respond that my happiness is more important than money. I chose the science field because that's what I dreamt off since I was 6! Now that I got into a job I love but not as well paid as other sectors, I'm not going to give that up. I'm one of the few lucky ones that does a job they love. I'm not going to give up on that! When Lucky asks me what I want her to become, I say whatever makes you happy. She insists though I tell her what she needs to become. I tell her it's her life and she can become anything she likes as long as she loves the work she does!
Secondly, I do things that make me happy. When people question why I volunteer and 'waste my time for free', I laugh at their ignorance. Helping others makes brings me immense satisfaction. True I do that in my profession too but there's something about changing your local community for the better even if it takes time. Unfortunately, for some people if it doesn't involve money, why do it? That's why we are in a world driven by the pursuit of money! Going out with my kids makes me happy. I get to be a child again. I get to experience things that I want to experience. That's why weekends and school holidays, we are never home! Because I love going out exploring and learning new things! I love dancing too! I always wanted to learn bharathanatyam but never had the chance to. So sometimes, thanks to YouTube, I learn a few moves! I love looking at some beautiful human beings! After all what is the point of creating some good looking humans when you can't appreciate their beauty! Love 90s Tamil music which brings so much nostalgia and 2000s r'n'b somgs! I love acting. My bathroom has seen some oscar-worthy performances, I tell you, and have acted on stage and screen. I adore writing. It started when I was 8-9 when I used my cousin's computer to write my first story of a boy discovering a skeleton in his attic. And the writing never stopped from then. I find I can express more by writing than by talking. Hence why the blog started! But my main love is reading! I can't get enough of books. It's such a beautiful way to escape the world for a little bit. What will I do without books? Thanks to Mahi, I’m now discovering my creative side and hope it flourishes into something more where I can develop my skills and learn more art forms!
Thirdly, I don't rely on people for anything. I'm one that does her job herself and doesn't ask for help from other people, even if it takes longer to complete the task. That to me means I won't feel disappointed. Because with disappointment comes sadness. So I don't rely on anybody to do anything for me. Except maybe a very few people in my life (that are staying in my life because of fate), I choose the people around me very carefully. If I feel that somebody is going to bring some kind of chaos in my life and going to inject their unhappiness in my life, I cut them off! That's why my circle of friends is small and family circle is even smaller!
Lastly, food! I love food and that's one thing that never disappoints me! It makes me so happy. Except when I dream about my special treat waiting for me at home and you come home to find somebody Inhaled without even savouring every single bite!! The disrespect to food when somebody eats like that makes me angry.
Happiness is a beautiful sensation that you only are responsible for. Why do we need to be dependent on other things/people to make us happy? Isn't this your life? Don't you have a say in what makes you happy and not despite what other people say? Why compromise on your happiness to make other people happy? I did that for the first 18years of my life and looking back at it, I don't feel it was me. That Sophie was the Sophie my parents wanted me to be. This current Sophie is the Sophie I want to be (although still in development). And you know what? Being me makes me the most happiest!
What makes me happy is of course my babies! They are days when you are about to resign as a mother but most days is seeing the world through their eyes. Ok maybe not through a 7year old eye because currently it's full of how the world is unfair and how people need to be more helpful to each other. So seeing the world through a toddler eyes is more apt. Although maybe not my toddlers eyes since it's full of vampires, skeleton and all things yucky and scary. OK, well I give up! You know what I mean! Seeing the world through children’s eye is beautiful. How seeing your child laugh while an ant climbs her/his arm, how catching dandelions makes them squeal in delight, surprise on their faces when you take them somewhere special, etc....I love seeing my children happy! !
But I don't depend on them for me to be happy because I'm responsible for my own happiness. That's the point people are missing! They pick a job because it's well paid/parents' wishes thinking that money or fulfilling parents' dreams is going to give them happiness. Do you know how many people I worked with have quite their high flying banking jobs and came to work in the NHS? They sold their soul to money and in return lost passion for lives. That's why when people say to change sectors , so I can get more money and stop living in the edge, I respond that my happiness is more important than money. I chose the science field because that's what I dreamt off since I was 6! Now that I got into a job I love but not as well paid as other sectors, I'm not going to give that up. I'm one of the few lucky ones that does a job they love. I'm not going to give up on that! When Lucky asks me what I want her to become, I say whatever makes you happy. She insists though I tell her what she needs to become. I tell her it's her life and she can become anything she likes as long as she loves the work she does!
Secondly, I do things that make me happy. When people question why I volunteer and 'waste my time for free', I laugh at their ignorance. Helping others makes brings me immense satisfaction. True I do that in my profession too but there's something about changing your local community for the better even if it takes time. Unfortunately, for some people if it doesn't involve money, why do it? That's why we are in a world driven by the pursuit of money! Going out with my kids makes me happy. I get to be a child again. I get to experience things that I want to experience. That's why weekends and school holidays, we are never home! Because I love going out exploring and learning new things! I love dancing too! I always wanted to learn bharathanatyam but never had the chance to. So sometimes, thanks to YouTube, I learn a few moves! I love looking at some beautiful human beings! After all what is the point of creating some good looking humans when you can't appreciate their beauty! Love 90s Tamil music which brings so much nostalgia and 2000s r'n'b somgs! I love acting. My bathroom has seen some oscar-worthy performances, I tell you, and have acted on stage and screen. I adore writing. It started when I was 8-9 when I used my cousin's computer to write my first story of a boy discovering a skeleton in his attic. And the writing never stopped from then. I find I can express more by writing than by talking. Hence why the blog started! But my main love is reading! I can't get enough of books. It's such a beautiful way to escape the world for a little bit. What will I do without books? Thanks to Mahi, I’m now discovering my creative side and hope it flourishes into something more where I can develop my skills and learn more art forms!
Thirdly, I don't rely on people for anything. I'm one that does her job herself and doesn't ask for help from other people, even if it takes longer to complete the task. That to me means I won't feel disappointed. Because with disappointment comes sadness. So I don't rely on anybody to do anything for me. Except maybe a very few people in my life (that are staying in my life because of fate), I choose the people around me very carefully. If I feel that somebody is going to bring some kind of chaos in my life and going to inject their unhappiness in my life, I cut them off! That's why my circle of friends is small and family circle is even smaller!
Lastly, food! I love food and that's one thing that never disappoints me! It makes me so happy. Except when I dream about my special treat waiting for me at home and you come home to find somebody Inhaled without even savouring every single bite!! The disrespect to food when somebody eats like that makes me angry.
Happiness is a beautiful sensation that you only are responsible for. Why do we need to be dependent on other things/people to make us happy? Isn't this your life? Don't you have a say in what makes you happy and not despite what other people say? Why compromise on your happiness to make other people happy? I did that for the first 18years of my life and looking back at it, I don't feel it was me. That Sophie was the Sophie my parents wanted me to be. This current Sophie is the Sophie I want to be (although still in development). And you know what? Being me makes me the most happiest!
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